Meandering.  My new fitness theory, that may prove pivotal as I've had early successes with it.
Until the last two days, that is.
On the first meander, I hit Piestewa early.  6:41am according to Strava, that evil addicting app with only the 20% in mind.  My theory was I could go slow..."slow like a granny"...and manage my asthma.  Indeed, I achieved the summit without using the inhaler, and found the hike to be rather addicting.  It was my third time to the summit, and I knew I had found my Phoenix Thumb Butte.  Already I was recognizing sections of trail, and with three friends who do it on a regular basis, I knew it was a great outlet for a strenuous hike.
That and it's rocks. Allllllll rocks.
So, I meandered, people passed me like crazy, and I made it to the top with no asthmatic episodes.  I felt great, and got down in 33minutes-a nice time.
Then I did the Butte.
It's paved, and only .8 miles vs Piestewa's double black diamond 1.2 miles.  It took 30 minutes and I never ran out of breath, didn't need to suck water and I achieved a fitness goal set two years ago-to hike it without stopping.  I even ran down the other side-my first mile EVER in MY LIFE without stopping.  And at altitude, too!!
I was so happy-and thought surely I had cracked a code.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.
So I decide to do the "easy" side of Camelback.  You know, so Piestewa doesn't realize I'm in love with it.  Gotta keep competing mountains off-balance that way.
Yeah.
I meandered.  I didn't lose my breath.  I enjoyed the view.
It was 2pm, and I hadn't eaten anything.  The nausea turned to weakness, which in turn became dizziness.
Dang it.
I hated calling it due to stupidity.  I was so enjoying my meandering, and had no breathlessness or tiredness.  But fainting due to not eating was NOT going to happen.
Reluctantly, I headed down...and struggled.  A hard lesson was learned, and I did question if the heat added to it.  It was 94°, and even though I didn't feel hot and was well hydrated, normally not eating would not effect me so badly.
Yeah.  #learning
I woke up with night shakes, and given the fact it was a day I'd rather forget but couldn't, I wasn't surprised my body was desperate to get rid of stress.  The day was busy-I had a lot of work to accomplish if I was to leave on my epic adventure-and so I headed for Piestewa late.  I got there at 5:25pm, and recall thinking I should look up when last light was.  I figured an hour up, a half hour down and 15 minutes enjoying the summit.  Gave myself 2 hours.
The hike was hard.  Like pull out the inhaler twice hard.  I moved slow like a granny and a hundred people zipped by me...yet still I struggled.  The temp was 95°, and although I had eaten I wasn't feeling to swift.  Though daunted, I continued the climb...even talking some tourists into continuing to the top.
This is the spot dreams are made of, up on the summit of Piestewa Peak.  I sat there and ruminated on the day,  a few tears escaping.  Today had been like so many other anniversaries- I bought myself a piece of jewelry he cared nothing about, and I went on an adventure he missed out on (often when we hiked, we separated.  On our tenth anniversary we each did solo Canyon hikes.)
Today though, I remembered the good and examined the past, promising not to repeat the bad.  I told myself I'd marry again someday at that spot.
Whether I do or not is irrelevant.  It made me feel better to make the goal.
The trip down was difficult-in the twilight I was unsure if my footing.  It's hard to hike like a granny-sooo many people pass you it's discouraging.  I only had 16% phone battery, and wanted to save my light.  I finished at 7:42pm, 20 minutes later than anticipated and needing the flashlight the last five minutes.
The hike, while utterly exhausting, was worth it.  The views were amazing, and I continued my new love affair with the Peak.
The middle of Phoenix.  Love this town.
Looking in the mirror-I am fat.  There is 20-25lbs extra that I am carrying every time I hike.  I broke my rules and bought more jeans today, knowing I need them for the trip.  Cardio seems impossible with my lungs, but my legs?
My legs are getting very strong.
Walking up the parking lot, I could feel the coiled power.  They weren't tired or fatigued.  That's good because the epic adventure will require their full cooperation!!
#learning
I will do this.  I will figure it out.  I will get fit-and I will do it in a way that works best for me.  Tonight I realized that while I may not be in the 20% who exercise, I'm at the top of the 80% who don't...because I persistently do.
Again and again.
I will get this.  And hopefully one day?  I'll hike up that mountain in a white dress.  Because why ever not?  It certainly propelled me to the top today, didn't it?
Exactly as dreams should do.
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