I was going nuts. Really, that was my neurologist's diagnosis over the phone. He told me to go take a hike. So began a Fitness Quest, of overcoming stress and anxiety with exercise...but I hate exercise. Really. Don't we all? A broken hand, a divorce and multiple life changes have ensued since it began, but still the Quest continues...
Dad is 75, and has exercised every day of his life. My mom is 64, and recent health issues have been tough. Their legacy to me concerning exercise? Slow and steady wins the race.
After work today...
Which is here, and is breathtaking, btw.
...we went to see a special 30th anniversary screening of The Goonies.
My children were not pleased.
I, on the other hand, wanted to do the Truffle Shuffle.
I resisted the urge to quote every line.
I still kept my eyes closed during the scary scenes.
Because I am a scaredy cat. I've never seen what's behind One-Eyed Willy's patch.
To me, the appeal of the movie boils down to one thing:
I had hiked the Canyon for the second time, and did not feel the need to do anything else for the week.
Except hate on chihuahua's.
While Pilates intrigued and saw some fruit, why bother hiking? Why continue the quest? My clothes fit, so...
This is the skirt that started it all. On 2/7, it rippled on the sides. Not anymore.
It all boiled down to this: it was my wedding anniversary to the King.
West Fork hike, last Friday.
For some time now, I'd marked our 17th anniversary as a fresh starting point. 1 plus 7 equals 8...and lately 8's had been cropping up with increasing regularity.
He hasn't left me despite my tiara, or my repeated demands for selfies.
Yes, it's the start of our 18th year. Next year is our golden anniversary, because it's 18 years on the 18th. Given my obsession with 8's, this is significant. What I could not have predicted was my own mid-life crisis, leaving me questioning everything.
So, I need to let go of hating exercise, since I need the stress relief.
I need to let go of my tiara, and take pride in my home and family.
I need to let go of my doubts and insecurity, and work through the unknown in my new career.